Zoned Out

2008-09-11T22:42:00.001+08:00

OH by the way, this blog is temporarily on hold as I post on my MUSIC BLOG! =D

http://serenading--sirens.blogspot.com

2008-09-07T09:53:00.002+08:00

Hrmm I realized all my posts since like, I started posting again have all been about music. >< Seriously consider setting up a music blog, watch this space.

But ANYWAY, since my first line has already the word 'music' in it, the rest will too! X) YES, its another music post, about TWO CDs this time: Delta Goodrem's Delta, and All Time Low's Put Up or Shut Up EP, which is not very new, but hey, whatever goes for me. X)

Now, down to the first one, Delta Goodrem's Delta. Well, the first thing i noticed about it is that its rather loong. Long for my tastes, anyway. 12 bloody songs! >< But well, on my second run through the CD, i realised i haven't skipped a single song yet.

On more careful listening, most of the songs were based on a piano, or some poppy beat to it. Then i realised, it has a wide range of sounds in just this one album, which was pretty good, I suppose.

So by now you should have noticed I don't have much to say about this CD. I have no idea why either. =S songs to listen out for if you're getting it: In This Life, Possesionless ( BEST SONG IN THE WHOLE ALBUM), Woman, God Laughs, You Will Only Break into My Heart. Yup.

But now, about All Time Low. In a word: Genius. Thats probably because theres only 7 songs, but hey, whatever, every song is pretty memorable, though as always, the ones near the top of the list stick in my head better. >< But anyway, every song is good and worthy to be a single. Everything is just...good. So yup. Thats done for this post!

2008-09-05T18:58:00.003+08:00

Hey all, downloaded 2 albums just yesterday. Well technically one album and one EP, but nevermind that! the album is Goodbye Blues by The Hush Sound, and the EP is I-can't-remember-what by Sing it Loud!

Sing it Loud sounds so common, standard pop rock band haha. But the Hush Sound is special. All their songs have this very bluesy, jazzy feel to it. Very unique sound, and as such they are very cool. (=

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I feel baaaad
I'm sorryy
I'm not good
I wanna sleep. X)

Edit: This is has no meaning and is absolutely for fun okayy.
ilikesmallfonts. X)

Random song lyrics!

When its time to feel the void
My whole life has been destroyed
And everyone around me says my time is running out
I refuse to surrender
I refuse to surrender!!

2008-09-02T18:47:00.003+08:00

Hey all this is a completely long and overdue post which should came came 2 months ago! But whatever haha. ( NOTE: THIS IS A MUSIC POST)

So yes, what I will be doing is basically listing all the most awesome songs which I heard since the last time I didn't post! So yes. I downloaded 2 albums between now and then, namely My American Heart's The Meaning in Makeup and The Almost's Southern Weather. Oh, and just today I bought Delta Goodrem's new album I can't remember the name of, which I will be posting about later since I just put it into my com. Like, JUST.

BUT ANYWAY, firstly about the My American Heart album, The Meaning in Makeup! There was only one reason i downloaded it, for the really cool song How Dirty Boys Get Clean, and other than a few other songs which are like barely memorable ( Runaway, In Between, thats about it), How Dirty Boys Get Clean remains the only reason I even LISTEN to My American Heart. All the songs have similiar druggy guitar riffs, all have darkdark lyrics and tunes, all are boring. Ohwell that was put so meanly. ><

However, The Almost's album is a completely different story altogether. I can list almost every song (the titles are very long so I shan't bother; I remember only fragments of the titles anyway.) Even though the genre is very apparent ( alternative rock in the breed similiar to Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, but happier), every song is somehow different. In fact, theres been different periods of time where I've been listening more to different songs in the same album. Its that good. Really recommend it, everyone go torrent it, the seed count for most of the torrents are pretty fast. ><

Then of course,there are the few songs which I got yesterday, and added with 1 or 2 others, make up my Most Favourite Songs of All Time.

They are, in no order of merit:

What Sarah Said - Death Cab for Cutie
We Intertwined - The Hush Sound
Heart in a Cage - The Strokes
White Lines and Red Lights - Between the Trees
You are the Moon - The Hush Sound ( HAHA YES THEM AGAINNNN)

Especially the last 2 songs. Those 2 were the ones that kept my up latelate into last night and early into this morning. Its kind of hard to describe those 2, their just indescribable. >< YES THEY ARE THAT GOOD.

OH and a very promising song that just very barely didnt make the list: Poison Kiss by The Last Goodnight. A bit mainstream, but hell, its awesome as well.

Well I'm done here. Going to pull off the biggest stunt of my life tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Bye.

2008-06-23T12:20:00.002+08:00

Hrmm I am now in LA(B) lesson. Kinda boring, the teacher isn't making things better. =/ But oh well to pass time ( and my laptop battery. Its running low! ><), heres a recap of all the things I've done this hol, which just ended yesterday T_T.

First thing I actually remember doing was debate camp! Rather fun camp, with 3 debates in all. Only spoke in 2 of them, but I thought overall I did pretty well, and thats something to be proud of. XD Haha the Orchard thing on the second day was rather fun, with a good Jap lunch and having Tommy write " Hook me up 10 cents" on his arm! Haha, shops like House of Condoms. >< Very fun. Third day, with the exhibition debate about Santa and little kids or something like that ( can't really remember), was very interesting too.

The next thing I remember doing was going to Vivo with Teckwei, Zhuo Rong and Delia! Watched Accuracy of Death, where (APPARENTLY) I posted too much on the movie which wasn't worth that many words! But I thought it was good, so X) Secret Recipe plus Ben and Jerrys! Haha fun.

Next thing was the week of going out! Haha firstly with Zhuo Rong , and then the person who starts with the letter M. (= Drum Mania, Guitar Freak, and Mario Kart! Yay. PLus Guitar Hero after that. (= Muhaha Miss Murder and Reptilia! YAYYYYYY.

Then after that was umm.... that post debate camp thing the next week with Walter, Max, Kegan ( Back from Malaysia YAY) , Nigel, Wesley. Other people came, but they ditched, so oh well. ><><>< Indian poker + Family Guy HAHA.

OH well gonna end off here.

2008-06-13T18:34:00.001+08:00

MARIO KART OWNS. X) So does Drum Mania. the bunny button game I can't remember the name of, and Guitar Freak. XD Very much more fun to play when you have more money. =D Thanks for sponsoring! You know who you are.

Other than that, been randomly going around, and looking at random shops. Again. Oh well. ><

Short post. huh.

2008-06-12T19:19:00.005+08:00

Hey all again, I'm actually posting with some frequency now. But thats gonna change when school starts. Grr.

Anyway, went out yesterday! Went to eat at the relatively cheap Jap place with free flow ice cream, coffee and drinks. Its at Dhoby Ghaut MRT, for those who're cheapskate like me =X So yes, after that went around plaza, commenting on different stuff in different shops.Oh wait that was before lunch. After lunch we HIT THE ARCADE MUHAHAHA. I OWN AT MARIO KART X). But sadly i coudn't play the guitar-hero-like game there. Nevermind, gonna own it tomorrow. X))

So yes, here're some random pictures taken over the course of the holidays.

Was at the miniature shop and took a picture of it. Lelouch!

Aaaand this is Cloud.

DIdn't know Naruto used a SWORD. o_0

Haha this was at an exhibition at Plaza, it was a bug exhibition. And this was their model for an 8 legged insect. Too bad 2 of the legs were broken.><

Haha so thats all I have. Going out again tomorrow. X) Bye all.

2008-06-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

Haha hey all today was rather interesting, but before I say anything I would like to say today is ending in an hour, by the time I finish this post.

BUT ANYWAY, went to Vivo today, with ex-classmate from my primary school Nanhua. Watched this very interesting movie about Shinigami ( death gods). Now, from death gods you might think its some Bleach-like show where everybody kills each other, but no. It was a very interesting movie which had an script, and Takeshi Kanehiro was the lead. (=

So now, essentially the plot was that shinigami exists in the world around us. Their job is essentially to pop into our lives one week before our death and decide whether we should die or not. THey get transported by walking along this 2 platforms, which will lead them to a door, if they have another job assigned. So Takeshi ( his name in the movie is Chiba, I think) yes, CHiba, goes around into 3 people's lives: this girl who had everyone around her die, and lived a very sad life, but finally made it big when her supposed stalker was a record producer who wanted to hire her for his label. Chiba decided she shoudn't die, because she hadn't fulfilled her lives purpose, which was to sing. Oh and her name was Fujiki Kazue.

AND OH I failed to mention that CHiba " loves music". He says it so much, its hilarious. They way he sways his head from side to side as he listens to ALL kinds of songs ( from slow piano ballads to "Silent Night" to some poppy stuff"), he just takes it in. He even goes so far to call music "the greatest invention of humanity".

But anyway, the second person was a 40 year old yakuza named ..... Fujita. He had a little brother named Akatsu ( or at least treated him like one, the script was weak here) who works for this unnamed boss. His previous boss ( i think; as i said, weak script) got killed by umm Chiriki or something like that, and he wants to take revenge. When his current boss and Chiriki were to be partners, they laid a setup for him that meant that he would die. The strangest thing was that, he knew. SO then Akutsu didn't really like his older brother dying, and did things to try to prolong his life, like lying about scouting Chiriki's location, and Chiba played along.

(Oh I should probably mention here that Chiba is not the only Shinigami, there are others. You can roughly tell who they are by their white gloves, for whatever they touch that has life will kind of die, except for humans [i THINK, not completely explained] who faint. White gloves thing is used to great comedic effect.)

So when Akutsu and CHiba got captured, no one wad revealing anything about Fujita, so Chiriki got pissed and started whacking Akutsu ( why he didnt whack Chiba im not too sure, because Chiba was dressed like some gangster dude too). But anyway Chiba sees a fellow Shinigami with CHiriki, and through some amusing hand signals, He sent the message to Chiba that CHiriki was going to die. SO then Chiba just revealed Fujitas number, knowing he woudn't die. So at the end, all was well, nothing too bad happened.

Best scene of the movie: when all the gangsters were shot by Fujita, 4 more guys came out, dressed like yakuza, so Chiba looked like he was getting into a mess. But then they all took their hands out of their pockets, and guess what! White gloves! Then they look down.*cue dead bodies* HAHA that was amusing.

But then, Chiba decided the guy should die, simply because he fulfilled his purpose. He knew he was going into a trap, he knew he was going to die, but he went in anyway, and saved his brother. Because of that, he achieved his purpose, and didnt have to live anymore. ( warped logic, but yeah. ><)

Then third person! a 70 year old woman who works in a salon along the beach. the year is 2026, and theres this android girl. ><><) that the old woman is Kazue Fujiki! and she managed to meet CHiba again. Theres a subplot about her grandson, but I shan't explain.

overall, decent film, interesting ideas, but script lacked substance. But the thoughts I had were really strange.

Example:

If shinigamis determine when someone dies, does that mean they determine cause of death?
When chiba's pet dog assistant thing talks, sounds like a computer program. Is this shingami world governed by real rules and regulations?
Why do shinigamis wear suits?><
Why do they transcend time?
Do they have leave? XD

Well yeah something like that. But in essence, and interesting movie.

But I;m broke!

After that went to eat secret recipe. Contrary to DELIAS BELIEF, i thought it was good. ( HAHA WHO ASK YOU NOT EAT LASAGNE). so yes, it was good. (=

But coudnt really find the cd shop i was looking for, and screwed around at the playground.

Went home and slept for one hour.

Oh well going out again tomorrow.(=

And yes hope you actually do come back tomorrow.

Night.

2008-06-08T17:28:00.002+08:00

Just came back from watching Narnia! Quite a solid movie, seeing it was a fantasy movie and was based off a book. Much better than other stuff like Potter *cough* or Eragon. That being said, it wasn't flawless, but its transition from book to the screen was quite well done.

Plotwise, nothing much could be done, seeing it was based off a book by C.S Lewis,from a series of 7. Prince Caspian was the best book they could have picked, seeing it continues the stories of the 4 children ( who aren't really children anymore). But then, much of the 2 half hour monster could have been cut down, like the whole portion involving the White Witch being revived ( seriously, that was a waste of screen time).

Graphic-wise, it was stunning. The costumes were perfect, seeing it was a high budget movie. So all the clinking metal armor, the swords, the helmets, the wear, all seemed pretty real. The CGI was also awesome. Coudn't really tell that Aslan was all computer graphic stuff, cause' it looked pretty freaking real to me. ><

The soundtrack was also brilliant. Seriously. The music backed the scenes in the movie perfectly, definitely gonna buy it when I get the chance.

Kay signing off.

2008-06-07T08:54:00.002+08:00

Debate camp has ended, and the season of boredom in my life has officially begun! Not if I can do something about it though.

Someone made me wanna reread Artemis Fowl! Awesome series, just gonna reread it for the sake of making references during normal conversation. I tried thus far, and I remembered many quotes vividly even though I haven't touched my Fowl books for like one or two years, so yay I have good memory. X)

And unfortunately I did NOT take any pics of tc5 live, sadly. )= They had 2 new songs, which were pretty cool, rehearing them on youtube.

So yes, have very few pics from debate camp, and I dont feel like loading them anyway, so. Bye.

2008-05-04T14:25:00.002+08:00

Addicted to dance songs. Like Beating Heart Baby by Head Automatica. Maybe I'll use it to replace the Lovex song ( which was NOT a mistake, I might add. I really like that song.)

Youth14s this coming Saturday. Nothing to be nervous about, since we haven't really done anything yet. ><

Facebook is very interesting, randomly added a lot of people I didn't even know. =S

Exams this coming Tuesday. Hope nothing goes wrong. ><

Oh well. Short post again. GAAAAHH

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INTRO
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(Beating hearts baby...)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby...)
Let me in your arms to feel--
(Beating hearts baby...)
the beating of your heart baby.
(Beating hearts baby...)
The beating of your heart baby.

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VERSE 1
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You...
You want nothing to do with me.
You...
You want nothing to do with me.
I...
I don't know what to do with you.
'Cause you...
don't know what you do to me.

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CHORUS
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Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel--
the beating of your heart baby.
The beating of your heart baby.

(Beating hearts baby...)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby...)
Let me in your arms to feel--
(Beating hearts baby...)
your beating heart baby.
(Beating hearts baby...)
The beating of your heart baby.

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VERSE 2
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Girl...
You really got your hold on me.
Girl...
You really got your hold on me.
Go...
You gotta get away from me.
'Cause you...
You want nothing to do with me.

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CHORUS
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Baby is this love is for real
Let me in your arms to feel--
the beating of your heart baby.
The beating of your heart baby.

(Beating hearts baby...)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby...)
Let me in your arms to feel--
(Beating hearts baby...)
your beating heart baby.
(Beating hearts baby...)
The beating of your heart baby.

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BRIDGE
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In spite of you,
even out of view,
still I love all of you.
I.. I do. Yeah...

In spite of you,
even out of view,
still I love all of you.
I.. I do. Well...

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(Beginning lines of VERSE 1)
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You...
You want nothing to do with me.
You...
You want nothing to do with me.

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Chorus
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Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel--
your beating heart baby.
The beating of your heart baby.

(Beating hearts baby...)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby...)
Let me in your arms to feel--
(Beating hearts baby...)
the beating of your heart baby.
(Beating hearts baby...)
The beating of your heart baby.

(Beating hearts baby...)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby...)
Let me in your arms to feel--
(Beating hearts baby...)
your beating heart baby.
(Beating hearts baby...)
The beating of your heart baby

2008-04-18T09:26:00.003+08:00

Hello those who read my blog, finally another post. Currently in school, physical science lesson. Kinda feeling sick, going to go home later. A bad cough with no phlegm to buffer. X(

Going to watch the click five LIVE! Quite happy about that, just that its a little too far from now. 1st June. After exams. Scaaary.

Gah, gotta go.WIll edit this post at home. ><

2008-04-03T13:36:00.003+08:00

Spin me round again.
And rub my eyes.
This can't be happening.

We finished interviewing people for Nan Hua debate! Some are pretty good. One guy was awesome, but I won't name name yet, in case I'm wrong. >< Shaun thinks he's good too, so... yeah.

Went to watch Maroon 5 live, they were awesome. Will post the blurry pics... some other time.

Nothing much else to say really, just that we didn't break for JGs.

Oh well.

2008-03-12T17:26:00.002+08:00

Sorry I sounded distant, didn't feel good. Really miss you, even though I didn't sound it.

OUY EVOL

The death of my PSP. 12th march

2008-03-11T10:10:00.001+08:00

Mom is suckily sick.

I know it hurts. But its another day in paradise, for me.

Thanks.

2008-03-02T22:07:00.001+08:00

Impostingforthesakeofgettingasong.

2008-01-08T22:28:00.001+08:00

Hmm. Training tomorrow. What the heck.

I hate life ><

2007-12-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

Hmm I finished Ouran. Why does it have to be only 26 episodes =/ But now, instead of reminiscing/watching it 8 times *ahem*, I shall read the MANGA ( Which is still running).

Went to watch a movie on Friday with Liren, Darion and Edward, the double-latter ( If there is such a thing ><) of which I hadn't met before the movie. Watched National treasure, is rather good.

Now, downloading Code GEASS as much as possible without watching so that I can entertain myself during cl- I mean, when I'm bored during the sch- when i'm at home with no homework. Yeah ><

Mm gotta sleeeep soon, so gotta go.

" Maybe you're my love!" is still ringing in my ears ><

2007-12-21T10:20:00.000+08:00

Our Friend Lazarus Sleeps is satanic. What the heck.

Dah well, holidays are slowly drawing to a close. Reasons why I don't want it to:

a) Haven't done any homework.

b) Haven't watch Getbackers like I promised to ( " You don't need to promise you know" "Yeah but I want to!"

c) Haven't finished Bleach which I'm not really keen in anymore.

d)Haven't found a site I can watch Rorouni Kenshin on.

e) Haven't bought all the manga I wanted to ( Like more Negima (XD), starting samurai X manga, and so much more.)

f) But most important of all...

Haven't enjoyed myself enough. X(

Been doing too much slacking in the hols to actually do anything fun.
Sigh. Many regrets this hol.

Had a damn fun phone call yesterday, thanks of raising my mood. ><
Though my phone would have gone up at least 10 bucks.
But nevermind, it was worth it.

Going LAN later with Yiren, Chen yun, Ben and 1-2 more people I can't remember.
Gah, I have no life.

Someone help me get a life.
Til then, I am Ghost can help. (=

2007-12-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

Mm hi all.

Went to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks today. Cute show, but I didn't like it. Too... abrupt ending? And the acting wasn't all that great.Only the chipmunks were good. ><

Then after that, went to Borders. Got a CD as a Christmas present. Thanks again you two!

And then after wandered around Borders/Ngee Ann City. Then went home.

Hiccup: I took the wrong MRT. -_-" Didn't notice til 2 stops after. Stupid me.

Mm that was my day today. Was more interesting than this dumbass boring post though.

Switchfoot is good.

Edit: I FORGOT! Saw Weiming today! My ex-debate senior. Though it seems that he quit not because hes a ponner, but its because he got sent to US to study.

Small world.

2007-12-14T22:16:00.001+08:00

Enter the world of Naruto in debate .><

This is started in a convo where we tried to pair AC debate club people with Naruto characters! =D

me! = shikamaru
noel! = neji
lloyd = kakashi
kegan = naruto
max = sasuke
nishad = kiba
Walter = Jiraiya XD
Ryan = Chouji XDDD
Isaac... Havta think about it.

Soo anyway, the alter egos are in relation to a) debating power, b) personality. Might vary for different people which is taken into account though. =D

Then...

Content = Ninjutsu
Style = Taijutsu
Strategy = Genjutsu

HAhaha. Very funny convo that was.

2007-12-10T11:22:00.000+08:00

Mm MSN is such a tool. And such a pain in the ass. Like, waiting. So yeahh, not really such a good day. Or yesterday, even though watched Golden Compass with family. ( Its only so-so, didn't explain the full implications of everything like the book did. And I'm PISSED they DIDN'T include the ending where the Bible and Dust comes in. Humph.)

Anyway, wrote a poem during VJCs semifinals and finals, here it is. (Blessing or curse, I wonder? I still don't know if I should have went. Dah hell. )

A rose.
A blood-red beauty.
But like any other.
A sight to see when young.
But when nearing its death
The colours
fade away...

Much like you.

When a rose nears its death,
A beauty it is no more;
When the bright hues,
once vibrant,
now gone
dulled by the years

Much like you.

And look at you now,
once vibrant, once beautiful.
Once loved.

Look at you now;
nothing more
but a memory of your existence.

Like a dying rose,
your colours
have faded away.

A rose falls
on the lifeless stone
and slowly,
so slowly,
I walk away.

OH yes, and special thanks to Shirley for trying to cheer me up when she herself was not in the best of moods, and impossible feat I assure you. Thanks a lot, sis, for everything you've done, including the biscuits. You've made my half a year special. And as such, a big fat thank you.
(I know you hate this smiley but I dont care ><) (=

Sigh. And the wait continues.

2007-12-07T11:52:00.000+08:00

Errr help. Boredom is like arriving. Sigh. At least someones MSN. ><

Aaanyway, a barbecue later, so gonna miss debate training.

And lastly, Blackadder is the funniest shit ever. XD

Mm yeahh thats about it.

Ho Hum.

2007-12-06T13:09:00.000+08:00

Umm.

Bored.

Anyway, another Relient K song, Must Have Done Something Right. Still wondering if its actually referring to God or.. a special someone =/. Maybe its both. But hell, heres the song:

Must have done Something Right - Relient K

We should get jerseys
Cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine
Cause you're out of my league

And I know that it's so cliché
To tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life
And everyone watching us
Just turns away with disgust
This jealousy
They can see that we've got it going on

And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You're okay With the way This is going to be
Cause this is going to be The best thing we've ever seen

If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

Maybe I'm just lucky
Cause it's hard to believe
Believe that somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
And I know that it's so cliché
To talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside
It's so very obvious
To everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on

And I'm rackin' my brain
For a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me
Than what I know how to say
You're okay
With the way
This is going to be
Cause this is going to be
The best thing we've ever seen

If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right
I must have done something right

Once again, ownage bridge, but the chorus is a bit lacklustre, like Who I am Hates WHo I've Been. But nevermind, ownage song.

You're more to me than what I know howta say.

2007-12-03T20:57:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Bad day.

And come back soon.

2007-11-29T09:30:00.000+08:00

Shit, found a bloody good song. But that later. ( Yes Lucas, Brandy and Noel. another song commentary ><) Now, I shall talk about the waste of time which manifested itself as Emergency Procedure Day some days back. Our NCDCC i/c Tamton San ( T and S, flip them. Both Ts.) forced us all to go, and in the end, only FIVE went, including me. Heres some picturs of that day. Say hello to dummy in a suit.

The cops rush to the scene of the fake fire. ><

The good guys are finally here! ( Rolls eyes)

SO, all we did was give away phamplets. What a waste of time. Seriously.

Now, since thats away, I shall lengthen my post with describing the beauty of the song, Deathbed by Relient K.

Relient K - Deathbed Lyrics

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home

The year was nineteen forty one
I was eight years old and
Far far too young
To know that the stories
Of battles and glory
Was a tale a kind mother
Made up for her son

You see
Dad was a traveling preacher
Teaching the words of the Teacher
My mother left mourning
Went off to the war
And died there with honor
Somewhere on a beach there

But he left once to never return
Which taught me that I should unlearn
Whatever I thought a father should be
I abandoned that thought
Like he abandoned me

By forty seven I was fourteen
I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
I smoked until I threw up
Yet I still lit 'em up for thirty more years
Like a machine

So right there you have it
That one filthy habit
Is what got me where I am today

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end

I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many thingsI'd do again

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home

I got married on my twenty first
Eight months before my wife would give birth
It's easier to be sure you love someone
When her father inquires with the barrel of a gun

The union was far from harmonious
No two people could have been more alone than us
The years would go by and she'd love someone else
And I realized I hadn't been loved yet myself

And there's your typical spiel
Yeah if life was a highway I was drunk at the wheel
I was seeing the loose ends
All fall apart
Yeah I swear I was destined to fail
And fail from the start

I bowled about six times a week
The bottle of Beam kept the memories from me
The marriage had taken a seven-ten split
Along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end

I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I'd do again

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home

I was so scared of Jesus
But He sought me out
Like the cancer in my lungs
That's killing me now
And I've given up hope
On the days I have left
But I cling to the hope
Of my life in the next
Then Jesus showed up
Said "Before we go"
"I thought that we might reminisce"
"See one night in your life"
"When you turned out the light"
"You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"

You cried wolf
The tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, "What have I done?"
You loved that lamb
With every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite
You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day please take me home with you"

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end

I can hear
You whisper to me,
"It's time to leave
You'll never be lonely again"

But this was my deathbed
I died there alone
When I closed my eyes tonight

You carried me home[Jon Foreman of Switchfoot sings, as the voice of Jesus:]
I am the Way
Follow Me
And take My hand
And I am the Truth
Embrace Me and you'll understand
And I am the Light
And for Me you'll live again

For I am Love
I am Love
I am Love

This is definitely one of the greatest songs I have ever heard. The tune is awesome, the lyrics are awesome, and it goes on for ELEVEN MINUTES! Ownage song.

The lyrics about this guy.... Ah hell read it yourself. Its not that hard to interpret.

Ho hum.

2007-11-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

Mm, ripped this off Lloyd's blog, though he was supposed to give it to me first. *Squints*

IF YOUR LIFE WERE A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here’s how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, iPaq etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool…

01 - OPENING CREDITS: Mechanical Heart - A Static Lullaby
( Eek, scary. :/)

02 - WAKING UP: He Said She Said - Ashley Tisdale
( Its gonna be a bad day ><)

03 - FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL: Kiss Kiss - Chris Brown feat. T-Pain ( Sorry, good day XDDD)

04 - FALLING IN LOVE: Better Off Dead - The Faders ( Not a good way to start a relationship... Especially not a gay one. " Oi boy, you're better of dead!" Right.)

05 - FIGHT SONG: V3 - O2Jam Official SOundtrack ( SHIT, thatll sound bloody coool)

06 - BREAKING UP: One Last Kiss - Madina Lake (Err... At least I didn't get Pandora ><)

07 - PROM: Happy Birthday - The Click Five

08 - LIFE: Here In Your Arms - Hellogoodbye ( Fits... I think.)

09 - MENTAL BREAKDOWN: Phantoms Now - Armor For Sleep ( Yeahhhhhh ><)

10 - DRIVING: Walking Disaster - Sum 41 ( Shit, not a good sign)

11 - FLASHBACK: Higher and Higher - Rave Master Soundtrack ( The happy song!)

12 - WEDDING: Evil Angel - Breaking Benjamin (EEeeeeeeeek. Scarrrryyyyy. XDD) 1

3 - BIRTH OF CHILD:Diary Of Jane - Breaking Benjamin (Ben again? If its a boy, hes called Ben. IF its a girl.... Jane sounds good. XD)

14 - FINAL BATTLE: 1985 - Bowling For Soup (HAHAHHAH. Imagine singing about how outdated your opponent's mom is when you're in your final battle. ><)

15 - DEATH SCENE: Forever - Papa Roach (" But my feelings for you are forever" Eek. Too cliched.)

16 - FUNERAL SONG: Mr Brown SHow 10th August 2007 ( HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH OMGOMGOMG)

17 - END CREDITS: No Sleep Tonight - The Faders (Yeah, cos Im DEAD)

Hurhurhur.Quiite a few funny oness:

MR BROWN SHOW TTM XDDD

2007-11-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

Hey all,

today decided to blog about something. That is, a song. To be precise, Madina Lake's Pandora. For those of you who do not know, Madina Lake is the band, and Pandora is the song. ><

"Pandora"

The way you dance it turns me on
But you know that I'm spoken for
The way your sweat drips off your chest
You know that I'm wanting more

The lust, the sex, the heat, this sweat
And nothing else matters
But you and me without your dress.
I already forgot her
You, you have no idea what you do to me
And you, you have no idea what you're doing to me

Pandora,
I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart
And I don't know how you snuck your way into my arms
But I know that I'll regret what I did
And I know that I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away,
Pandora

The girl I love sits at home and I know that she's lonely
But I'm watching you take off your clothes
You're the star of this moment
The love, the hate, the guilt, my fate
Is hanging in the balance
You, you have no idea what you do to me
Oh you, you don't even care what she means to me

Pandora,
I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart
And I don't know how you snuck your way into my arms
But I know that I'll regret what I did
And I know that I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away,
Pandora

And by the time that I come home she's already sleeping
Sit on the bed and take off my clothes
My nerves they're shaking
The lust, the sex, the heat, this sweat
Your body is quaking
The love, the hate, the guilt, my fate
Against this temptress

I'm a shame
I'm a shame

Pandora,
I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart
And I don't know how you snuck your way into my arms
But I know that I'll regret what I did
And I know that I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away
(forever as I throw my life away)
Forever as I throw my life away,
Pandora

I rather like this song, not just because how the tune appeals to me,but because of how the lyrics tie back into the melody and ultimately the entire song. At the starting bit, the tune is very quiet and the singer adopts a husky voice ( or what someone called "sexy lyrics" ><) in which the lyrics is probably about how a guy is having an affair with another woman. As he is in the middle of the process of intimate caricature, he is getting turned on. ><

Then, when we reach the chorus, the tune changes to something more heavier(and is not entirely related to the beginning of the song)as the guitarists actually start playing something. XD Then, in the lyrics, the main character(whos a guy) starts to reconsider this whole affair he is having, and how he will probably regret it for the rest of his life.

After the chorus, it reverts back to the husky voice and "sexy" tune and lyrics, and he starts singing about the sex again. Then the chorus repeats.

Overall, the whole lyrical idea is very interesting to me, and what is most interesting is that everything comes back together at the end: the singers change in voice, the melody, the use of guitar, and the lyrics. Great song.

lolololol

2007-09-06T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hey all, post number.... 17, i think? not sure. Or maybe 16. This post count thing ain't working... Nevermind, will check later. Anyway, holiday week. Very subdued in my life. Basically gaming. Been playing Dragon Ball Z Budokai 3, Grand Theft Auto San Andreas, Fifa 07, and 2 moons.

That reminds me, I recommend all gamers to play 2Moons. Very cool game.

Okay, went out today with ________a and __________b. Don't want to mention name cause some people like to spread rumours. * Glares at Class 1.10 and some people in it*

Yeah. And Brandon, I got you a plush toy for your birthday present! Very cute. Hope you don't own me when you open it XD.

Yeah, thats about it. :/ My week has been really bad.

So I shall lengthen it by adding song lyrics.

LIFEHOUSE LYRICS

"You And Me"

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

'Cause it's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me
and all other
I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things
that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

'Cause it's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me
and all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

'Cause it's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me
and all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of
you and me
and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me
and all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

2007-09-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
Tsk... Bad impressions.

2007-09-01T11:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was really screwed up. Really bad.

After Teacher's Day celebration, we went to Nan Hua.

PLayed football( I played like shit, rightly so.) Then after that went to visit teachers. AFTER that( this is where the screwy part comes in) we decided to go West Mall, since the girls were already there.

So went to West Mall, where Darrel got hounded. Won't say anymore after that.

So me and Andre went on our own ways, seperate from the group.( Also done by Bernard and Justin, Boon Choon, Zi Xiang and Fang Chen)( But the two groups fused after that)Wandered around aimlessly, the only shop we actually went into was Subway( Andre...) and Ted and Stephanie.

In Ted and Stephanie saw Kelly, Wen Xian and Zhiqi. I tried to find a hat, but coudnt find one. ):

On a totally random note, I bought Trinity Blood vol 5 !! Haven't read it yet though. Going to at tuition later.

At this point, I would like to bring up something called Freedom of Choice.
I mean, give the guy a chance. His choice right? What the FUCK la.

Sigh...

2007-08-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

Hey all, post 13... Counting the previous post. :/ Yeah anyway, decided that I'm going out AGAIN on Thursday, and probably next Monday/Wednesday. My wallet is gonna die after the hols,shit... But the money will be well-spent. (Or so I hope) Anyway, feeling half-cheery and half-sad. Cheery cos of good things, and sad cos of bad things. Very detailed explanation... Anyway, thats it for now.Signing off.

Sigh...

2007-08-26T18:03:00.000+08:00

Sorry.

Hi sis

2007-08-23T08:14:00.000+08:00

Hey all, post 11. Been busy lately,so not able to post. Anyway, now is my history period, quite fun. History periods are fun and educational. Ok damn, that sounded like some random tuition ad. :/ I don't have much to post about, just that( I might have said this in the previous post already) I'm having this lunch in Sept hols, with all kinds of my friends going, and so, if you're intersted, tell me, and if you want, you ccan bring your friends along.I do have to repeat that I am NOT the sponsor( a few of my friends asked me to -_-") so yeah. Will probably be at Cinileisure, so yes, please tell me.

So that's about it. Signing out.

LALALALALALA

2007-08-17T10:54:00.000+08:00

Hey all. post numba 10. In chinese class now.... Boredbored. Anyway, have to do a Geography prsentation later... To many presentations this week, very knocked out. Also, later got NCDCC. My First Aid test.... Gonna fail. Furthermore, I'm missing debate on Monday next week cos' of the Rugby C Div finals with St. Andrews. Waste my time....

Yep. thats it for now.

hyperhyperhyperhyper

2007-08-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

Heyheyhey all, post 9, i think... Lol. Anyway,feeling hyper today! Even though I'm broke and I had to borrow money from someone, not to mentiona large sum of money from someone * looks at IB block in my school* Yep. So... nothing more to blog about... Just that I rushed a) writing out the raw text for history project due next day, b) Finishing 3 Physical Science assignments, c) rush out debate research. Yep. All in 1 1/2 hours time. Anyway, nothing else, so going off here.

Lalalalalala

2007-08-10T19:57:00.000+08:00

Hey all, post 8. Nothing much t post about today, since I didn't go anywhere. But anyway here's a damn funny vid for all Linkin Park lovers out there. * Looks at Brandon blasting his music* Yep. The link is :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JYNRhzX6gw8

Anyway, I just got this song, and the tune is so melancholic, I love it. The lyrics are artistic too.

Endlessly, She Said lyrics by Afi.

Walked into our world and made
Horrible sounds
I can still hear them today
(Sweetly they seem)
Beautiful now
Though they all passed, my love

Still each time I always miss
Everyone, everyone
Though in time they finally bent
Every word, everyone, every word

“I will wait for you,” she said, endlessly.
“I will wait for you,” so spoke, Misery

I returned to you but found
My empty home
The radio told me to stay
I sang alone
You will not pass, my love

Still each time I always miss
Everyone, everyone
Though in time they finally bent
Every word, everyone, every word

“I will wait for you,” she said, endlessly.
“I will wait for you,” so spoke, Misery
(Oh)

I have been waiting for you
Biding as you taught me to
I have come to relieve you of life and love

I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait
I will wait

“I will wait for you,” (I will wait) she said, endlessly.
“I will wait for you,” (I will wait) so spoke, Misery
“I will wait for you,” (wait for you) she said, endlessly.
“I will wait for you,” so spoke.
So spoke, Misery.

I will bite straight through
As I wait for you, dear
Endlessly.

What a cool song, i hope this will happen to me... Some day. Anyway, signing off here.

LOLOLOL

2007-08-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hey all, post 7. Anyway, went to Jurong Point... again. Went to buy Trinity Blood Volume 2.I like the idea of holy vampires. So cool. :) Anyway, went to get some Macs, and when i came back I ate some pizza at our condo National Day party( I didn't realise it was National Day tilI saw the party XD) and when I got home I had chicken rice for dinner. My stomach is screwed now, hope that Coke will help it. LOL.

ANyway, on a totally random note, I finished Seven Deadly Wonders! What a cool book, I recommend it to anyone who loves a good thriller. I quote : " The monster inside Jack was out now, the monster that Judah had helped create. And he was a mean motherfucker." You can't get better than that XD. ANyway, signing off.

I was hurt when I got that message.
I thought you found me irritating
Which was what I expected all along.
I guess my money goes to naught.

Blog titles cant be read, WTF

2007-08-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

Hey all, its me here again. Post count 6... Went out with Nash today to Jurong Point... Thats about all that happened today. Bought the first volume of Blood Trinity, but now i think I'm broke. ): But no matter, I can leech from my savings( Which has 80+ in it) So yeah, I'm not really broke. Anyway, today go Jurong Point was wasted trip la. Won't bother explaining, all I got was Blood Trinity. ):

In times of darkness
And despair
Light shines by
And people bask in that glory
A reprieve from the horrors they suffer in the dark.
But after some time that light fades away
Leaving the people to suffer once again.
I hope that light of mine can come back
I really do.
And that light is you.

Life is sad. But you can't read this

2007-08-07T16:56:00.000+08:00

Hey all, post count 5. Today was rather fun, went to Turf City for Cross Country today. But because I'm in NCDCC, had to do marshalling duty, so didn't have to run. And duty for NCDCC basically means slack. But it wasn't all fun. I heard stuff from people. Stuff ranging from " You saved my life" ( After I gave them water), " You're very sexy"(WTF??) (After I gave them water as well) to " Don't be a motherfucker" and " You want me to burn your balls?" ( After I told them the right way to go). Then I followed Jarrad, Clement Jamin go Giant. They combine together, bought... Wait no, before that, you must know what is a PEZ. It's this white sweet that tastes nice. And you can put them in this toy-like container, in which you opened the top of the cintainer( which is a figure of a cartoon character), the sweet will come out. And they altogether combine bought $17 worth of PEZ!!! I was laughing so damn hard la.

and And so, after that, I went with Jarrad to , first, buy a shirt, cos' he was wearing his PE tank top, and then after that to Orchard Cinileisure to play DotA. And then after that we went to the Comic Mart. I bought a few packs of Magic the Gathering( Which I don't even play but I'm planning to start).And then Jarrad found this card game called War, and a pack was cost 0.50. And there were 15 cards in one pack! So Jarrad went to buy it, and when we opened it, we realised the game SUCKED( if you've been playing card games for a while you'll know when a game is good by looking at the card itself). And it was developed by Decipher, so I'm gonna check it out later on Wikipedia. So yeah, that was my day tomorrow. And tomorrow half-day, so I'll probably go out again, or get people to come to my auntie's house. Yeah, thats my day for today. So fun right? Lol.

You keep saying I'm OK, but I don't think so.
I need to love, but I'm afraid to love
Cause I'm afraid to experience rejection
One time too many.

If I had a diary, you would be on every page...

2007-08-05T13:57:00.000+08:00

Hey all, post count 4. I just realised I had about 2 projects to rush by tomorrow, and 1 by Tuesday. So after this post, I'm gonna rush the two, and hopefully the other one too. Anyway, not much happened between this post and the previous one, just a few tags on my tagboard.Shirley, what does ' a bit' mean? And Rohan, my secret obsession with what? Sasuke? Read the tag.

Anyway, i just got my National Geographic! Cover page: Maya - How a great culture rose and fell. Sounds interesting, I'll go read it later. Oh, and an update on my reading status: Reading a Matthew Reilly book called Seven Deadly Wonders. Rather complicated plot, on page 300 something now. I continue reading it tomorrow, in school.

Secondly,I would like to thank all those people I've smsed this week. Without you people my week would have been really boring, so yeah, kudos to you all! You know who you are! ( And for all those who think this is not Avery who's blogging, it is me. Sounds unnatural of me, but I've decided to start thanking people for the little things they do. Sounds great, eh?)

Anyway, I'm done here. Out.

At times life is wicked but I just can't see the light

2007-08-03T10:55:00.000+08:00

Post count 3, hey all. And yes, I intend to keep counting posts til this blog dies. :) Anyway, not much to talk about today, except that today Rachel Cheung(Debate teacher in-charge) asked us to stay back, but we don't know for what. So Lloyd told us after school, but as Darren and Isaac had white space we had to wait for one hour plus. And when the time came at 1420, we saw Kegan coming with one young looking woman and a young looking guy wearing a MINDEF uniform. Kegan came and told us they would be our coaches.

Then Rachel Cheung came out and told us the same thing, and told us about training on Monday, then said we could leave. -_- Stayed back for an hour plus to listen to teacher talk for 5 minutes. Wasn't really worth it. At all.So we all stayed and watched as Kegan filled in the Arena forms. Yes, ACSI is going for the Arena. And I hope we'll do well...

Anyway, thats about it, so signing off here.

Talk is all very fun and all
But I find it very trivial
Its what inside that counts.

Your tears don't fall, they fall around me..

2007-08-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

Hey all, post count no.2 . Today was a stupid day, not much to talk about. No happy things, the sad thing is that there won't be debate tomorrow. :/ Ahh well. An afternoon of boredom... I guess I'll roam around Clementi with my saved money, looking for something to buy. But boring when no one goes along with me. I need a really great bunch of friends. :/ Dah well. Thats the one thing I don't have. A great bunch of friends. The one thing I don't have, and the one thing I desperately need. Being alone ain't fun. Tch.

Anyway, no NCDCC tomorrow! Rejoice!

If love lasts forever, people will never die

2007-08-01T09:55:00.001+08:00

Hmm, first post on this new blog. In school now, Computer Studies period, which means we get to play around with our tablets. :) Waiting for a SMS reply now, so I'm feeling rather bored. :/ Will probably post later today, most likely today.

For now, tata.

People love.
Yet I feel no warmth.
Emotionless is how I feel,
Cold is what I am.